My Fertility and Pregnancy Journey
4 years, 2 miscarriages and a Rainbow...
I always knew it would be hard to get pregnant, or at least that's what I had been telling myself since my Endometriosis diagnosis at the age of 30. Three years later, as my husband and I started trying for a baby, my fears around getting pregnant began to materialize. While I watched my friends conceive effortlessly, I struggled to understand why something that should be so natural was proving so difficult for me.
A year later, I made the tough decision to pursue IVF support. My husband was initially resistant, thinking it was unnatural and believing we should just keep trying, but I couldn't endure the monthly cycle of despair any longer, so we embarked on this journey.
It was challenging. IVF isn't anyone's first choice, but with the guidance of my acupuncturist and a fertility coach, I found moments of joy throughout the three years of cycles and two miscarriages. I began to shift the longstanding beliefs that my body couldn't get pregnant and carry a baby.
I learned many tools to manage my anxiety and fear of the scans. By the time I reached my last cycle with my final embryos, I felt a sense of peace, knowing I had done everything possible to prepare my mindset and body for pregnancy. I accepted that the rest was up to Mother Nature.
Entering that final cycle, I felt both hopeful for a baby and at peace with the possibility of a life without children. I never imagined I could create such harmony within myself, but with support, I did, and six weeks later, my little rainbow appeared on the scan.
However, seeing my little fetus on the monitor didn't mean I was out of the woods. Anxiety returned, fueled by the memories of my two previous miscarriages. I was terrified of each scan, panicking at every twinge in my stomach or sign of blood.
I turned back to the techniques from my coaching to confront my fears, create visualizations and affirmations, and establish a positive self-care routine. This new approach helped build my confidence in my body and deepened my connection to my growing baby. During my pregnancy, I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and faced the possibility of a c-section or induction. However, I focused on my ability to give birth naturally, developed relaxing breathing rituals, and ultimately experienced a beautiful water birth—something beyond my wildest dreams for which I will always be grateful.
My journey through fertility and pregnancy, alongside the tools I developed to combat stress, fear, and negative beliefs, led me to create a tailored mindset program. This program features helpful tools and exercises, along with transformative one-on-one coaching sessions, designed to liberate you from a negative mindset and cultivate your own fertile mind. I can't wait to work with you and guide you along the right path...
